Time Erases Memories

Only 7 months have passed and i realise what a loser i am with friends.

Meeting with sec sch classmates felt really awkward. Apart from the usual wave or nodding, there wasn't much to talk about. And sometimes familiar people can just walk pass like strangers.

Some people call that dao, some explains that as "人是会变的", but i think it probably just felt weird.

Being in different classes/organisation/cca/clique/school now, old acquaintances meet new acquaintances. Imagine yourself meeting a newer friend and another not-so-new friend, who should you approach first? While you do not want to appear dao to your not-so-new friend, you cant possibly ignore and seclude your newer friend. So if you are the not-so-new friend, you probably will try not to disrupt the conversation and walk away quietly, such that the person won't be in a difficult situation. However, seeing the not-so-new friend walk away, you will either think the not-so-new friend have changed to a dao person or you might feel guilty for accidentally daoing another not-so-new friend.

its complicated.

Even meeting with closer friends felt embarrassing sometimes.. Met with lekchia a couple of times and there was so much pauses cause i cant think of topic to chat about... Ah, I can already feel myself getting more dull and not-funny... =(

And I haven went out with yutse for a long time. He has been busy with his commitments.. even a 5mins walk to the gate needed much persuasion, suspicion and consideration. -_-

everything is just not the same anymore

Does everyone change after they are no longer meeting one another often? Real friendship should last longer than that isnt it? Or maybe it just need a little bit more effort to maintain the connection. Its surprising how hard strangers meet and become friends, but how easy it is for them to revert back to strangers.

Sometimes, time erases memories faster than you have expected.