y force urself

sometimes, u ponder
who really understands
who really cares

u entered my everyday
u changed my life
and i tried to change yours
u said u became better
but i know u are better
just being who u used to be

u arent happy with me
and u are happier without me
y force yourself
to accept the imperfect me
and continue the evanescing relationship

u tried your best to make it last
but what for?
if its just because of how long it had been,
we might as well end the misery now
it gets sour, disgusting and irritaing
and one day, u cant wait to abandon it

yesterday
had become yesterday

differences brought us together
but differences also brought us apart

i wont be sad
and i wont regret
i know i m shitty
stubborn
wilful
selfish
but i was just being myself

u think i dun care
u think i just want it to end
but do u really understand
understand how i really feel
and see the tears that i shed

i wont be greedy anymore
i should just live my own life
and leave u alone
leave u to a better world out there

walk around
and u feel warmer sunshine
u see brighter rainbows
the delicate breeze wants u to go along

if not because of you
i would not had known how silly i was
this is not how i want it to end
but it could have been much worse

i deserves to be alone

thanks for all u had done
but just leave
u dun need me














i am lonely.



really lonely