Bad Grades

These few days have been pretty routine. Wake up, go school, return home tired, waste time on comp, and go to sleep. Then the next day, everything repeats.

And not to forget, waking up at a very late time everyday. Due to some attendance taking programme by MOE which i suppose is due to some school having mass ponning of school due to food poisoning, and having a righteous and 奉公守法 ct, we have to report whether we are going to school even if we are late.

Damn, and i cant wake up at 630. I don't know what i do everyday at night (obviously i know, but why must i tell u), but every morning i wake up and feel the urge to continue sleeping. Call it lack of self-discipline or what, I hate myself for being like this too. So for the past 4 days, terileo promptly called me at 745 every day, scaring me out of bed.

I can sense her piss level getting really to a max pissified level as the mornings pass. So i wanted to reach school early for assembly today to surprise her, since there was spring cleaning at 8 anyway and i dunwan to be awoken by her again. But &*)*#$)(*@#&$# i was once again awoken by my phone with the same number.

Spring cleaning ended earlier by 1 hour so i basically missed the whole thing and she insisted on me having already planned to skip the whole event (which is not really true), then she went on to talk about us using the school facilities for one year and me not attending spring cleaning to do a part for the school and how i am on scholarship and get to enjoy independent school facilities on normal jc school fees and how i should consider going to polytechnic cause poly life will suit me better since there wouldnt be morning assembly.

i kept quiet. and she spoke endlessly, just like how the last para had no punctuations.

i guess, just because i pay less, i must 委屈 a little bit and do my part for the school, since the school pays, eh nope, the government subsidises my school fees and pays the school for its independent school facilities.

but no matter what shhhhhh,... crap people tell me, its just about me putting in an effort to get back to normal school days mode and report to school on time. nobody will listen to excuses, so i shall make sure i wont need to give any.

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some starhub guy from starhub keeps calling me, saying that there will be some whatever programme going on at my area, and there will be a special offer to install some cable tv stuffs at a discounted rate. that guy had a gay voice and was talking about how the programme works and how i can enjoy the promotion. talk talk talk, endless man. And i was having a nap when he first called, and he could sense that i was sleeping and said that "i think you are still not very clear and dun understand 50% of what i said, so i shall call u again. when will you be free?"

Damn him man, i dislike people who point out your unhelpable incapabilities and say it out loud. Just like the stupid econs teacher who wrote "Out of time?" after my incomplete essay.

Anw, I said monday night. Obviously, i wasnt interested at all, and neither will my family be. My second brother had joyfully signed cable tv plans twice, bringing home the machine and secretly plugging it to the TV though the machine was so big that everything was so obvious. But he could only pay the first month's bill, so the machine ended up getting confiscated everytime.

And when i din pick up on monday night, and tuesday night, and wednesday night, obviously i am daoing him and not interested in the promotion at all, so maybe he could strike my number of the list and stop harassing me with that Withheld number.

Urgh, if only everything was so obvious to everybody.

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i realise what i have written have completely nothing to do with the title.

Anw, results are bad. not as bad as those who are on the verge of retaining, but worse than i had expected. Hovering around 50 for almost all subjects. H3 is impossible now, and promotion shouldnt be a problem i hope. I just hope that i don't have to drop any subjects. I promise i will work hard next year x.X

If your results are worse than mine, you will probably be cursing me for still being unhappy. And similarly, i curse those who got better than me and are still complaining about the 1-2 marks loss.

I think most of the people in my cls did really bad as well. This is what we get for not doing tutorials everytime from the start of the year.. Played too much, slacked too much. Definitely the last minute rush for the past few weeks is not enough for us to cover what we had missed throughout the year. Its sad to see so many of us worrying about retaining, but im sure we all understand that for the efforts we had put in, whether enough or not, we deserve the results we ended up with.

Theres nothing we can do about lecturers/tutors not as we have expected.
Theres nothing we can do about the difficulty of the papers.
Theres nothing we can do about the others who worked harder than us.

Hope those that worked hard enough gets promoted, and work hard next year for A levels.

Definitely not feeling good these few days. So many people feeling down, worried, tired, disappointed...

Sometimes, I just want to go home straight and hide from everyone and everything.