Dying

im dying. 'A' s will shorten my life span by about 6 years and 7 months.

im lacking sleep.

everynight i will be in this maodun situation. i want to sleep, but i know i cant because i still have tutorials,remedial work,consultation work to complete. if i sleep then they wont be completed and i will attend tutorials,remedials mindlessly or get scolded for not preparing for consultation.

so every night, there is a mental battle in my head. to sleep or to work. and the result is: sleeping while holding onto notes, with lights on and all the files and notes on the bed.

the lights are on to assure myself that i slept because i couldnt tolerate the tiredness. if i had switched them off it would appear as if i completed all my work so i could finally prepare for sleep.

and i slept without all my alarms so i was late almost the entire week. wahlao...

so screwed lor.. how?

im losing weight lor, and pimples just continue to sprout. wahlao wahlao everything is working against me.

must plan, must plan! must study from morning till night! if i dun then i might not even get a C for physics! thanks for the constant reminder that my life is nothing but study now, and also how dead we will be if we 'continue to be not studying and putting in effort'. some teachers are so encouraging.

i hate this. prove you wrong man!

byebye. go mug.